My husband cried the day we found out I was pregnant. For almost our entire relationship being a father was something he wanted to be. But when our little girl was finally born, things weren’t right. I never put much thought into the idea of him suffering with postnatal depression, but all of a sudden, that’s exactly what he was going through. I know he’s talked about his struggles a lot on this blog. But the unspoken side of mental health is often the affects it has on the people around the sufferer. So this is my story of having…

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If you read last weeks Dad Diaries then you might know I wasn’t feeling the best. I was basically on and off with my depression and put some of it down to letting the blog take over my life a little. Well this week I’ve been a bit better. I haven’t been absorbing myself quite as much in the blog and I’m more than happy to just see it as a part time hobby for the time being. As of this writing, I feel like I’m at least trending towards somewhere positive. I’m still a little bit up and down…

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I’ve always tried to be as honest and open as I can be with this blog. The vast majority of the time I’ve talked about my struggles with mental health in the past tense. I’ve written a lot about what has happened, rather than what is happening. But this time I’m talking about it just as I’m starting to feel myself slip into depression. I’m not sure why I’m even slipping. But I’ve been here enough times to know that I am. I’m finding myself more and more thinking “what’s the point?” and in general I just don’t have a…

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I’ve talked about mental health and postnatal depression quite a lot on this blog. And one of the things I’ve briefly touched upon is suffering from baby regret. So I’m just going to talk about that in a little more detail. Before I continue, I will say that I don’t suffer with baby regret anymore. At least not seriously. I’ll admit to occasionally having thoughts along the line of “life would be so much easier without you” when dealing with difficult moments. Especially when those moments bring about a lot of stress. I’m guessing that might be normal and it’s…

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When I look back at my experience with postnatal depression, I know there was a lot of things that helped me on my way to recovery. But there was one thing that I feel kick started the whole thing, and that’s going away together. Going Away Started My Recovery From Postnatal Depression The first time I ever felt that Isabelle actually liked me was when we were in a random Travelodge in Weston super-Mare. She was propped up on the bed in one of those nursing pillows wearing just a nappy. It was ridiculously hot during a typical British heatwave…

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